a while back i posted about a free hug campaign that's been going around the world. today i was reading a blog (behind the chaos) and apparently beijing has one too :)
and so i wondered, "does hk have one too?" perhaps on a familiar street? yes and yes :)
Mar 23, 2007
Mar 22, 2007
online misbehavior
through the yrs i've been chatting with ppl online, interesting things have happened. i'm sure some of the listed misbehavior below r common to most of u guys, but some might be not.
- ur profile says u'r single even though i know for a fact u have a bf (and i know him)
- u pretend that we've never met in person (i.e. briefly through a mutual friend some time ago) and ask to meet and chat, with u knowing if i knew it was u, i wouldn't have said sure why not
- on msn u say let's have sex, i say no, u say "just kidding anyways". grow up
- somehow i've never met u but u know my name and the last 4 digits of my phone number
- on msn, i like using emoicon for expressions and u say "u'r so gay". news flash - having guy-on-guy sexual fantasies and/or acting them out makes u "so gay"
- old pictures old pictures old STATS!!!
- praising all the virtues of honesty and morality that u up hold in ur profile, which, coincidentally, has only one picture and it's mine
if u guys have any that would like to add, pls do :)
- ur profile says u'r single even though i know for a fact u have a bf (and i know him)
- u pretend that we've never met in person (i.e. briefly through a mutual friend some time ago) and ask to meet and chat, with u knowing if i knew it was u, i wouldn't have said sure why not
- on msn u say let's have sex, i say no, u say "just kidding anyways". grow up
- somehow i've never met u but u know my name and the last 4 digits of my phone number
- on msn, i like using emoicon for expressions and u say "u'r so gay". news flash - having guy-on-guy sexual fantasies and/or acting them out makes u "so gay"
- old pictures old pictures old STATS!!!
- praising all the virtues of honesty and morality that u up hold in ur profile, which, coincidentally, has only one picture and it's mine
if u guys have any that would like to add, pls do :)
found this on youtube
i dunno if the guy is gay or not but the song is kinda fun. a little bit hard to hear what he was singing at times but mostly easy to make out. the song's title is "my whole family thinks i'm gay"
Mar 21, 2007
stupid resume
let it be known that i hate doing my resume!! i've put it off for ten yrs....... yeah, TEN LOL
my current job is freelance interior painting (the construction-like type), so i don't need a resume. and i've been in full-time school for yrs before that (psyc BA).
skills/traits to include..
- loyal (sure, of course, to myself)
- trustworthy (since no one would ever find out i always steal from work)
- eager to learn (all the illegal stuff in the office so that i can black mail)
- copes well with stress (by stealing from the office)
- cheerful/positive person (i always bring drugs to work ^_^ )
it's all just a joke!!! seriously, just a joke~~~~~~!!!!!!
my current job is freelance interior painting (the construction-like type), so i don't need a resume. and i've been in full-time school for yrs before that (psyc BA).
skills/traits to include..
- loyal (sure, of course, to myself)
- trustworthy (since no one would ever find out i always steal from work)
- eager to learn (all the illegal stuff in the office so that i can black mail)
- copes well with stress (by stealing from the office)
- cheerful/positive person (i always bring drugs to work ^_^ )
it's all just a joke!!! seriously, just a joke~~~~~~!!!!!!
too lazy to write right now.... hehe
i'll just post this video instead :) but it's really funny, i promise :)
Mar 19, 2007
tragic love story
i was talking to McDaddy on the phone last night (talking to him about my introspections have become quite a habbit of mine). one piece of the conversation was about "love story". but not the ones in the movies (not exactly), but the ones in life - the relationships u would have: do u want it to be relatively smooth sailing from meeting the guy, to start dating the guy, to falling in love, and to thereafter. OR r u one of those ppl who prefer a rougher history with the guy and, hence, more obstacles to overcome and resulting in more passion and reward.
the whole thing might depend on ur point of view of "is it supposed to be this hard".
if u believe that it's not supposed to be hard, then u would likely believe that there should be a LOT of compatibilities and u two just click and everything else in life were also helping the coming-together of u both. it's like "mr. right" theory - perfect for each other. then u would be more incline to choose the first scenario in ur own "love stories".
but then, of course, as magical as it might be, i have come to realize i don't believe in "mr. right" (it has nothing to do with mr. right-now either!). i don't believe in the "perfect person" that might or might not come along. i believe in there's a scale of compatibility - from 1 to 10, and 10 being perfect - but somewhere in the middle of the scale is fine for me. cuz there's no guarantee that there's a 9 or 10 out there for me. if u think about it rationally, even if there is a 9 or 10 out there for u, why would that person be living in the same city as u anyways?? he might not even ever come to ur city and u might not ever end up in his city. and the ppl in the city u'r living in now? just how many ppl r there? right?
and also, i think i like obstacles. or, at the very least, i would try to overcome the obstacles if they should ever show up. i'm not afraid to try and i don't wanna end up thinking about what-if-i-tried-harder in later yrs. those r the questions that u will never be able to find answers for; and those could easily be one of the regrets to bring to ur grave (when i said that "bring to ur grave" idea on the phone with McDaddy, he said i was looking ahead too fast lol).
i think overcoming obstacles can be hard. but may be it's meant to be hard because it is worth it. because u would cherish it more, because u won't take the person for granted (as opposed to if it was relatively smooth sailing than there was no struggle to get to the point of where u r). and most of all - because it is romantic.
the whole thing might depend on ur point of view of "is it supposed to be this hard".
if u believe that it's not supposed to be hard, then u would likely believe that there should be a LOT of compatibilities and u two just click and everything else in life were also helping the coming-together of u both. it's like "mr. right" theory - perfect for each other. then u would be more incline to choose the first scenario in ur own "love stories".
but then, of course, as magical as it might be, i have come to realize i don't believe in "mr. right" (it has nothing to do with mr. right-now either!). i don't believe in the "perfect person" that might or might not come along. i believe in there's a scale of compatibility - from 1 to 10, and 10 being perfect - but somewhere in the middle of the scale is fine for me. cuz there's no guarantee that there's a 9 or 10 out there for me. if u think about it rationally, even if there is a 9 or 10 out there for u, why would that person be living in the same city as u anyways?? he might not even ever come to ur city and u might not ever end up in his city. and the ppl in the city u'r living in now? just how many ppl r there? right?
and also, i think i like obstacles. or, at the very least, i would try to overcome the obstacles if they should ever show up. i'm not afraid to try and i don't wanna end up thinking about what-if-i-tried-harder in later yrs. those r the questions that u will never be able to find answers for; and those could easily be one of the regrets to bring to ur grave (when i said that "bring to ur grave" idea on the phone with McDaddy, he said i was looking ahead too fast lol).
i think overcoming obstacles can be hard. but may be it's meant to be hard because it is worth it. because u would cherish it more, because u won't take the person for granted (as opposed to if it was relatively smooth sailing than there was no struggle to get to the point of where u r). and most of all - because it is romantic.
Mar 18, 2007
longing
last night i told him i liked him. that i couldn't stop thinking about him and i've even lost some sleep thinking about him. that even when we first met, a long time ago, i've always liked him. even when during the last relationship my feelings for him was only put aside dormant, but not dead (with that said, i was true to McPiggy during). that my feelings for him have woken up again, "i know u don't like me, but i need u to tell me so that i can move on." at least that what i was hopping to happen.
what he said first was more or less what i knew he would say - can't we be friends.
but everything after was a bit of a surprise. i thought he would feel uncomfortable; disgusted even. i thought he would walk away from me immediately. but the exact opposite happened. he said he found me attractive (i think that his version of "i do like u a little bit"; u see, we cuddled before), but he doesn't want to complicate his life right now. and then he told me things. intimate things. he was showing me his emotional side - and there sure is a hurting lonely person in there. he admitted to things i never thought was inside him. he was also afraid. afraid of trying anymore. tired of all the disappointments and all the hurt. he boxed himself in through the yrs to adapt.
i wonder. should i try harder? to break into his heart? is it supposed to be this hard? i do succeed, wouldn't i hold extra responsibilities? would i crumble under the pressure? would he run away under the pressure?
as we were talking, he cuddled up to me. at one point, at the end of the conversation, when neither of us knew what to say anymore, we just kinda lied there facing each other. and there was a sense of longing. and i swear i felt it from him too.
he was afraid of being hurt and disappointed again. i was afraid of bearing the responsibilities of not hurting and disappointing him. we were both insecure.
after all this time, ever since we've known each other. after all the events/ppl that had come into and out of each of our lives. both me and him r still stuck at the same spot.
what he said first was more or less what i knew he would say - can't we be friends.
but everything after was a bit of a surprise. i thought he would feel uncomfortable; disgusted even. i thought he would walk away from me immediately. but the exact opposite happened. he said he found me attractive (i think that his version of "i do like u a little bit"; u see, we cuddled before), but he doesn't want to complicate his life right now. and then he told me things. intimate things. he was showing me his emotional side - and there sure is a hurting lonely person in there. he admitted to things i never thought was inside him. he was also afraid. afraid of trying anymore. tired of all the disappointments and all the hurt. he boxed himself in through the yrs to adapt.
i wonder. should i try harder? to break into his heart? is it supposed to be this hard? i do succeed, wouldn't i hold extra responsibilities? would i crumble under the pressure? would he run away under the pressure?
as we were talking, he cuddled up to me. at one point, at the end of the conversation, when neither of us knew what to say anymore, we just kinda lied there facing each other. and there was a sense of longing. and i swear i felt it from him too.
he was afraid of being hurt and disappointed again. i was afraid of bearing the responsibilities of not hurting and disappointing him. we were both insecure.
after all this time, ever since we've known each other. after all the events/ppl that had come into and out of each of our lives. both me and him r still stuck at the same spot.
Mar 17, 2007
the most masculine flower...
i'm happy to say that my friend came out of surgery (for cancer) perfectly ok. all of the tumor should have been removed, but, just in case, he's gonna go under chemo treatment in a month as well. now there's a big horror-movie scar 3-4 inches long running down his neck at the back of his right ear. and apparently it bleeds at night when he's sleeping o_O
me and McDaddy were picking out flowers to buy and bring over. my concern was to pick something lively looking and not depressing (aka not the ones u buy for a tomb stone....). McDaddy had some other concern as he was browsing:
McDaddy: is there a masculine flower?
Me: fine, go buy a cactus.
me and McDaddy were picking out flowers to buy and bring over. my concern was to pick something lively looking and not depressing (aka not the ones u buy for a tomb stone....). McDaddy had some other concern as he was browsing:
McDaddy: is there a masculine flower?
Me: fine, go buy a cactus.
Mar 15, 2007
i so stole this from someone else's blog lol
source: http://androi8.blogspot.com/index.html
in one of the blogs that i read, i found this really "interesting" link - it's about what bands r "gay"... from the perspective of... bible readers :)
http://lovegodsway.org/GayBands
i don't know if u noticed... first, not all of them r bands (ok, fine cheap shot. but wait!) and second, how the hell did jay-z and eminmen end up in the list?? especially eminmen, his lyrics often talk about killing gay ppl!!
and here's a pin that i own :)
in one of the blogs that i read, i found this really "interesting" link - it's about what bands r "gay"... from the perspective of... bible readers :)
http://lovegodsway.org/GayBands
i don't know if u noticed... first, not all of them r bands (ok, fine cheap shot. but wait!) and second, how the hell did jay-z and eminmen end up in the list?? especially eminmen, his lyrics often talk about killing gay ppl!!
and here's a pin that i own :)
good tv good work out
it was a good night of tv with new ugly betty and grey's anatomy. it was 2 hrs of fun :)
anyways, on with trying to think of something to write.
errrrrrrrrmm.....
well, i went to gym with McBubby yesterday. actually, we went shopping first. aka HE wanted to go buy stuff to de-stress. it got to the point that he wanted to buy a t-shirt just because it was on sale! apparently shopping calms him... *rolling my eyes*
after i followed him around downtown (and 2 gap stores in the mean time!!), he finally realized it was getting late and we should go to the gym. it was almost 6pm; i never go to the gym during that time just like i try not to drive anywhere during that time - traffic jam on the road and in the gym. there were way too many ppl. but lucky for us, whatever we were going to use was free.
why am i writing about going to the gym? cuz my boobies and triceps r hurting quite bad today. don't get me wrong - i like the hurt :) it means that i've done good work and that if i can keep it up i can gain weight. and why do i wanna talk about my boobies hurting and all that. cuz working out with McBubby and doing exactly his routine helped me to force myself to do more and heavier - proportionally speaking, he's bigger than me.
and why do i wanna write about working out with McBubby? cuz one of these days i swear one of us will kill the other one! we've known each other for more than a couple of yrs. we hang out not too often. very rare for a while actually cuz we used to get into fights with each other. but when we weren't at each other's throat, we would have a good time.
but recently we've been hanging out more and without the murderous intent and all. or at least way less. i'm gonna try to tag along with him to the gym more. he can be my trainer/motivator lol
i'm just hoping he won't revert back voicing his opinions like the way he did in the past....
"women are meant for making babies"
"asians are bad drivers" (except for himself...)
and of course
"asian women shouldn't be allowed to drive"
anyways, on with trying to think of something to write.
errrrrrrrrmm.....
well, i went to gym with McBubby yesterday. actually, we went shopping first. aka HE wanted to go buy stuff to de-stress. it got to the point that he wanted to buy a t-shirt just because it was on sale! apparently shopping calms him... *rolling my eyes*
after i followed him around downtown (and 2 gap stores in the mean time!!), he finally realized it was getting late and we should go to the gym. it was almost 6pm; i never go to the gym during that time just like i try not to drive anywhere during that time - traffic jam on the road and in the gym. there were way too many ppl. but lucky for us, whatever we were going to use was free.
why am i writing about going to the gym? cuz my boobies and triceps r hurting quite bad today. don't get me wrong - i like the hurt :) it means that i've done good work and that if i can keep it up i can gain weight. and why do i wanna talk about my boobies hurting and all that. cuz working out with McBubby and doing exactly his routine helped me to force myself to do more and heavier - proportionally speaking, he's bigger than me.
and why do i wanna write about working out with McBubby? cuz one of these days i swear one of us will kill the other one! we've known each other for more than a couple of yrs. we hang out not too often. very rare for a while actually cuz we used to get into fights with each other. but when we weren't at each other's throat, we would have a good time.
but recently we've been hanging out more and without the murderous intent and all. or at least way less. i'm gonna try to tag along with him to the gym more. he can be my trainer/motivator lol
i'm just hoping he won't revert back voicing his opinions like the way he did in the past....
"women are meant for making babies"
"asians are bad drivers" (except for himself...)
and of course
"asian women shouldn't be allowed to drive"
Mar 13, 2007
wanna see my sperm?
what did u think u would see?? lol
as u can tell, it can be move! i took a couple of videos of it and tried to upload to youtube, but after the upload, i couldn't find it!! i typed in the right key words (tag or whatever) and it's just not there. but, luckily, i have imeem! IMEEM~~~
Mar 12, 2007
sunday
day light saving what what?? lol
if i didn't go out saturday night and stayed home, i might not have known about adjusting the o'clock (see, appreciate random party friends having random conversations with u). good that i found out, so i wasn't late sunday morning picking up McDaddy and McBubby to go have lunch, shopping at metrotown, and movie (300).
McBubby is someone who has alot of suggestions. really. lol but it's not like he tries to force his ideas on ppl as well; he just wants to help :) he suggested taiwanese food for lunch. it was a small family-owned restaurant in burnaby near metrotown. and the food was..... well, it wasn't bad, it was interesting, but the particular dish i ordered had too much sauce on it! i don't like my rice soggy and wet........ but it was a good lunch.
afterwards we went to metrotown. my original
plan was to watch them shop and highly encourage them to buy things for themselves. i'm evil like that :) don't ever go shopping with me :) anyways, that plan fell through hehe we went inside AE and, as usually, i went straight toward the "on sale" rack and, to my surprise, found something nice -- i found a white t-shirt for 10bucks! i have a thing for white t-shirts, especially since they have very short life expectancies in my household -- they always somehow get wrecked coming back from laundry... and then, we went to old navy and McDaddy was picking out some running shirt and was talking about how this material is good for letting u sweat less or what not. and my faithful readers should remember something about me not liking to sweat but love to run. so i bought a white one and gonna try that shirt out at the gym later today. if it doesn't work, i kill have McDaddy's head!!
McBubby was the biggest spender that day. over 200 bucks!! but it was all nice looking stuff he bought.
after the exhaustive shopping, it was movie time -- 300. heard of it?
if u haven't seen it yet, go fucking see it!! it was awesome!! and it's not just about the half naked men in the movie lol actually i only thought one of them was kinda cute (not the main character). what was really good about the movie was the directing and the action and plot. and u can tell the actors had spent time learning how to do their stunts and action sequences. it was really full of power and force. go see it!!
if i didn't go out saturday night and stayed home, i might not have known about adjusting the o'clock (see, appreciate random party friends having random conversations with u). good that i found out, so i wasn't late sunday morning picking up McDaddy and McBubby to go have lunch, shopping at metrotown, and movie (300).
McBubby is someone who has alot of suggestions. really. lol but it's not like he tries to force his ideas on ppl as well; he just wants to help :) he suggested taiwanese food for lunch. it was a small family-owned restaurant in burnaby near metrotown. and the food was..... well, it wasn't bad, it was interesting, but the particular dish i ordered had too much sauce on it! i don't like my rice soggy and wet........ but it was a good lunch.
afterwards we went to metrotown. my original
plan was to watch them shop and highly encourage them to buy things for themselves. i'm evil like that :) don't ever go shopping with me :) anyways, that plan fell through hehe we went inside AE and, as usually, i went straight toward the "on sale" rack and, to my surprise, found something nice -- i found a white t-shirt for 10bucks! i have a thing for white t-shirts, especially since they have very short life expectancies in my household -- they always somehow get wrecked coming back from laundry... and then, we went to old navy and McDaddy was picking out some running shirt and was talking about how this material is good for letting u sweat less or what not. and my faithful readers should remember something about me not liking to sweat but love to run. so i bought a white one and gonna try that shirt out at the gym later today. if it doesn't work, i kill have McDaddy's head!!
McBubby was the biggest spender that day. over 200 bucks!! but it was all nice looking stuff he bought.
after the exhaustive shopping, it was movie time -- 300. heard of it?
if u haven't seen it yet, go fucking see it!! it was awesome!! and it's not just about the half naked men in the movie lol actually i only thought one of them was kinda cute (not the main character). what was really good about the movie was the directing and the action and plot. and u can tell the actors had spent time learning how to do their stunts and action sequences. it was really full of power and force. go see it!!
saturday night
well, saturday afternoon was a complete dread!!!! i spent it completely alone at home bored out of my mind!!!!
and when it finally came night time to go out with ppl i made plans with , miscommunication and waiting even more got everyone worked up and somehow the plans fell through..... :(
but i've never stayed home on a saturday night (that's when i'm single and so have no one to cuddle with at home), so i just called up some party friends and went out -- let's get a little bit tipsy then!
and then the interesting things started to happen... i wonder just how much of it i can write without those two calling me and using alot of f-you lol
let's just say.... if i feel that someone has taken me for granted (when i was there the person never cared or not enough) and now that i've left the person's life and s/he wants companion from me only because s/he that particular night felt vulnerable or lonely (but never otherwise called to hang out), then don't expect much from me.
and don't come knocking on my door now that i wrote the paragraph above! i have my own life and ppl to hang out with when i'm out, don't just expect me to drop everything and hang out tight just because u were hurting or ur friends weren't there yet.
hmm... too much?
and when it finally came night time to go out with ppl i made plans with , miscommunication and waiting even more got everyone worked up and somehow the plans fell through..... :(
but i've never stayed home on a saturday night (that's when i'm single and so have no one to cuddle with at home), so i just called up some party friends and went out -- let's get a little bit tipsy then!
and then the interesting things started to happen... i wonder just how much of it i can write without those two calling me and using alot of f-you lol
let's just say.... if i feel that someone has taken me for granted (when i was there the person never cared or not enough) and now that i've left the person's life and s/he wants companion from me only because s/he that particular night felt vulnerable or lonely (but never otherwise called to hang out), then don't expect much from me.
and don't come knocking on my door now that i wrote the paragraph above! i have my own life and ppl to hang out with when i'm out, don't just expect me to drop everything and hang out tight just because u were hurting or ur friends weren't there yet.
hmm... too much?
friday night
friday night was fun. me, McDaddy, and McBubby went to deman/robson for some korean hotpot :Pwhat i love the most about korean food is the side dishes. i could have a meal with just them. and of course i'm one of those ppl who would say, "ok. let's each of us take turn asking for more side dishes." lol what they're free - FREE!!!! lol and it's sooooooo good! love the sea weed and the soft potato thing. *drooling drooling* the kimchi that they give u is usually ok, but the best kimchi i've had is from T&T supermarket.
just look at those side dishes ------------>
*drooling drooling~~~~
but actually, see the one that has a pair of scissors in them (McBubby wouldn't just back up a little for me grrr), i actually don't like that one at all -- i never eat that.
after the dinner, we went to the nearby capers and they had desert. i don't eat desert :) they had like carrot chocolate cake and some kinda other cake lol coffee and tea as well. we sat outside at the patio and chatted for an hr or so more before McBubby, with the scissors earlier, said that he wanted to go.
there's actually more to that friday. before the desert, before the dinner. at home. something nice happened. but i don't know how much i can write about that for now. may be in the soon future, but not right now, just in case :)
Mar 11, 2007
offer
it's been an interesting weekend filled with interesting events that i don't even know if i should write here. no it's not sex lol that's not too interesting at all. but it's sunday night now and i'm just tired, so i'm not gonna write about this weekend until tomorrow :p
but here's a short piece that i can write about -- recently, i've been asking myself, "what do i have to offer in a relationship?"
laughter? i don't know if i'm that funny of a guy. i'm not boring and i do say funny stuff, but am i so funny enough that it can be a strong point?
little sweet things? i'm not careless and i'm not inattentive, but i'm a little lazy sometimes :p
but at the same time, i guess i do have a few things to offer that aren't bad...
i give good affection :) i'm not cold when i'm with a guy. i'll say nice things; i'll kiss the guy. i do lots of hugs and cuddles.
i like communicating :) everything should be talked about openly with an open mind. feelings, past events, concerns, etc. i can do that pretty well.
i can stay in as well as go out :) i'm not one of the extreme types - either out there every weekend or staying in every weekend. i know how to strike a balance between social time and private time.
the question itself -- "what do i have to offer?" -- is still relatively new in my head, so i haven't really figured out anything extensive yet. but i really should try to think more about it because this has to do with the bigger picture in life. i should know my weaknesses and strengths.
but here's a short piece that i can write about -- recently, i've been asking myself, "what do i have to offer in a relationship?"
laughter? i don't know if i'm that funny of a guy. i'm not boring and i do say funny stuff, but am i so funny enough that it can be a strong point?
little sweet things? i'm not careless and i'm not inattentive, but i'm a little lazy sometimes :p
but at the same time, i guess i do have a few things to offer that aren't bad...
i give good affection :) i'm not cold when i'm with a guy. i'll say nice things; i'll kiss the guy. i do lots of hugs and cuddles.
i like communicating :) everything should be talked about openly with an open mind. feelings, past events, concerns, etc. i can do that pretty well.
i can stay in as well as go out :) i'm not one of the extreme types - either out there every weekend or staying in every weekend. i know how to strike a balance between social time and private time.
the question itself -- "what do i have to offer?" -- is still relatively new in my head, so i haven't really figured out anything extensive yet. but i really should try to think more about it because this has to do with the bigger picture in life. i should know my weaknesses and strengths.
appreciate the ppl around u
always appreciate the close friends u have. for example, the ones that have helped me through my emotional recovery for the past two months.
always appreciate the party friends u have. for example, the ones that have helped me through many weekends nights for the past two months.
and always appreciate whoever that would have this conversation with u when u were supposed to get up early in the morning to have lunch with ur close friends while u still decided to go clubbing the night before. (especially if one of those u were supposed to meet up was already slightly annoyed by u - u shouldn't be late!) just like last night..
me: oh it's past 1am already, i have to go before 2.
JJ: it's actually past 2am already, we set the clock forward an hr tonight.
me: HOLY SHIT !!
always appreciate the party friends u have. for example, the ones that have helped me through many weekends nights for the past two months.
and always appreciate whoever that would have this conversation with u when u were supposed to get up early in the morning to have lunch with ur close friends while u still decided to go clubbing the night before. (especially if one of those u were supposed to meet up was already slightly annoyed by u - u shouldn't be late!) just like last night..
me: oh it's past 1am already, i have to go before 2.
JJ: it's actually past 2am already, we set the clock forward an hr tonight.
me: HOLY SHIT !!
Mar 8, 2007
my 100th post
my 100th post will be about my friend who is going into surgery on wednesday for cancer.
i can't say much cuz it's a big private event for me, obviously. all i can say is that the cancer is too close to where cancer should never NEVER even get close to. and they don't even know how much is in him and won't know till when they cut him open wednesday. and then he might need chemo depending on how it goes.
i'm hoping he'll be fine, of course. but i'm not a very hopeful person to begin with....
i can't say much cuz it's a big private event for me, obviously. all i can say is that the cancer is too close to where cancer should never NEVER even get close to. and they don't even know how much is in him and won't know till when they cut him open wednesday. and then he might need chemo depending on how it goes.
i'm hoping he'll be fine, of course. but i'm not a very hopeful person to begin with....
sleepless night
i haven't been sleeping well lately. waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to fall back asleep. it's actually about 5am right now.
but i made use of my sleepless middle-of-the-night :)
i've always hated having to write those "about me" sections in any profile. whatever i wrote didn't feel right or i just start to wonder did i say too much or not enough. but i think i've wrote the best one ever yet compared to all the other crap that i had ever written muahahaha!!
this is what i wrote just now for my downelink profile, which is at 769 now (if u don't get it, that's because u haven't been following my blog like ur life depends on it!! BAD BOY!! *wink )
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i think i'm a little bit different from other ppl, but then again, how many ppl say that nowadays :) and yet another then again, who isn't at least a little bit different from any other given person on this planet :)
a couple of yrs ago, i once told a friend of mine, "i can't wait till i'm in my 30's". and i meant it. while some ppl think that the golden age is may be from 18 or 19 to early 20's, i think the golden age is in the 30's. i think that's when most ppl have finally have had enough life experiences to grow into a fuller person and have conquered some of their previous fears and weaknesses. i guess i'm a person who values maturity both mentally and emotionally; i still have a bit of a way to go to achieve that though :)
while maturity is good and that i do have a certain degree of it (again, not fully of course hehe), i rarely act or talk like one lol i think maturity only needs to be shown when the situation warrants it. if the person talks or acts "maturely" 24/7, that would just be boring, very boring :) there's no need for maturity when i'm just hanging out and having a good time with a bunch of friends or strangers. i like making ppl laugh and maturity doesn't help with that :)
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i've also added the imeem music playist/player thing into the profile hehe i love imeem!!
http://www.downelink.com/29383/
but i made use of my sleepless middle-of-the-night :)
i've always hated having to write those "about me" sections in any profile. whatever i wrote didn't feel right or i just start to wonder did i say too much or not enough. but i think i've wrote the best one ever yet compared to all the other crap that i had ever written muahahaha!!
this is what i wrote just now for my downelink profile, which is at 769 now (if u don't get it, that's because u haven't been following my blog like ur life depends on it!! BAD BOY!! *wink )
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i think i'm a little bit different from other ppl, but then again, how many ppl say that nowadays :) and yet another then again, who isn't at least a little bit different from any other given person on this planet :)
a couple of yrs ago, i once told a friend of mine, "i can't wait till i'm in my 30's". and i meant it. while some ppl think that the golden age is may be from 18 or 19 to early 20's, i think the golden age is in the 30's. i think that's when most ppl have finally have had enough life experiences to grow into a fuller person and have conquered some of their previous fears and weaknesses. i guess i'm a person who values maturity both mentally and emotionally; i still have a bit of a way to go to achieve that though :)
while maturity is good and that i do have a certain degree of it (again, not fully of course hehe), i rarely act or talk like one lol i think maturity only needs to be shown when the situation warrants it. if the person talks or acts "maturely" 24/7, that would just be boring, very boring :) there's no need for maturity when i'm just hanging out and having a good time with a bunch of friends or strangers. i like making ppl laugh and maturity doesn't help with that :)
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i've also added the imeem music playist/player thing into the profile hehe i love imeem!!
http://www.downelink.com/29383/
Mar 6, 2007
a friend in toronto
j: i just got back from T&T
so friggin cold out
j: -15
me: did ur dick fall off?
me: lol
j: with windshield, it's close to -20
j: i got hard
j: hehe
me: it's called wind chill, not windshield
me: i'm so blogging this
so friggin cold out
j: -15
me: did ur dick fall off?
me: lol
j: with windshield, it's close to -20
j: i got hard
j: hehe
me: it's called wind chill, not windshield
me: i'm so blogging this
Mar 5, 2007
my new hat :)
as mentioned yesterday, McDaddy bought me a hat and he took some pics for me. so which one looks the best? they'r all generally very "soft" looking lol oh and in the last one u can actually see him in the mirror lol
anyone knows where i can dl this??
i wanna see this (obviously for the cute guys not the plot lol). anyone knows where i can dl this? chinese or eng subtitle is fine by me :)
bad habit bad habit
i've realized that i've got a pretty stupid and bad habit -- i keep track of how many ppl have viewed my downelink profile everyday... i simply log onto my user's page (the screen shot above is my actual profile not my user's page) and look at the number lol
i've actually re-set it since mid jan because i changed alot of things in my profile - pics, text, slideshow, background, etc. it's now 738 views.
totally ridiculous eh? lol
Mar 4, 2007
McDaddy is back!!
so McDaddy is back, yay~~~ he was gone for a month and it's good that he's around again.
no he's not a suggar daddy. no i'm not in love with him (nor any romantic feelings). no he's not old. i call him Daddy cuz he's that kinda guy who's kind and warm, and the fact that he wants a baby with someone.
about a yr and a half ago we met in odyssey. actually, it was the day when fantastic 4 came out in the theater. i remember cuz the next day we went to see it :) anyways, we met in odyssey, and there was instant attraction. but of course, my side of the story is still that he seduced me and lured me up to his apartment!! lol
we dated for a month. the fact is that, we have great chemistry but we r very VERY different ppl and it's was just very apparent that if we kept going as a couple it was gonna be very disastrous. so we stopped dating and started being friends.
it wasn't easy at first - trying to be friends cuz there was still some lingering feelings. but we got over it. now we're very good friends and still have our great chemistry :)
so now he's back from his vacation in asia and he bought me a hat that i've wanted for a while! yay~~ he actually took a couple of pics of me wearing it today (he owns an $1000 camera and can't even use all the functions on the thing. *rolling my eyes, rolling rolling* ). after he's uploaded them from his camera, i'll post them here cuz the pics r good :)
i think my roommates r having sex right now as i'm typing this, cuz i can hear moaning.. *rolling, rolling..*
no he's not a suggar daddy. no i'm not in love with him (nor any romantic feelings). no he's not old. i call him Daddy cuz he's that kinda guy who's kind and warm, and the fact that he wants a baby with someone.
about a yr and a half ago we met in odyssey. actually, it was the day when fantastic 4 came out in the theater. i remember cuz the next day we went to see it :) anyways, we met in odyssey, and there was instant attraction. but of course, my side of the story is still that he seduced me and lured me up to his apartment!! lol
we dated for a month. the fact is that, we have great chemistry but we r very VERY different ppl and it's was just very apparent that if we kept going as a couple it was gonna be very disastrous. so we stopped dating and started being friends.
it wasn't easy at first - trying to be friends cuz there was still some lingering feelings. but we got over it. now we're very good friends and still have our great chemistry :)
so now he's back from his vacation in asia and he bought me a hat that i've wanted for a while! yay~~ he actually took a couple of pics of me wearing it today (he owns an $1000 camera and can't even use all the functions on the thing. *rolling my eyes, rolling rolling* ). after he's uploaded them from his camera, i'll post them here cuz the pics r good :)
i think my roommates r having sex right now as i'm typing this, cuz i can hear moaning.. *rolling, rolling..*
saturday night fever
last night was just... well, it was alot of fun but also creepy....
first came the fun part. i had dinner with a cute boy - McCutie it is lol (i'm not creative!) anyways, we went to dinner at a sushi restaurant on 3432 w. broadway called Eatery. it was an amazing restaurant! it' not decorated like a regular japanese restaurant at all -- it looks like a pub with candles and a live dj playing really really good house/dance music. and the food was good too. we arrived just in time to get the second last empty table; 2 seconds after that some ppl came and took the last one and it was line-up-and-look-at-ppl-eat for an hr for the ppl who came after. i'll definitely go back there!
anyways, it was nice having dinner with McCutie. i met him online several weeks back and chatted a little bit on msn. i also ran into him a couple of times clubbing. it was interesting to hang out with him and talk about stuff. he has very cute eyes when he smiles :) but i think we'r better off as friends. he's quite new; i think he has some catching up to do.
after the dinner, he said a friend of his in dt is having a house warming thing. so i said let's go cuz i was in the mood to meet some new ppl and just socialize. once we got there, so much for the mood to get to meet new ppl.. other than the host and one other person in the place, i knew everyone else! what's more strange is that most of them i met through McPiggy.. so, that was creepy. lol
so i just sat around and chatted a little bit. and then the buzzer rang and the host was like, "oh, must be **** and ****" yet another two ppl i know. and then after that, a bit later more ppl came, 4 to be exactly, and this time i only knew one of them lol that was crazy
originally i was planning to go home by 11 or midnight cuz in the morning i have go to the airport and pick up McDaddy (he would hate me if he knew i call him that hehe i think i'll tell him later hehe). i didn't want to have to drive in the morning all tired but everyone seemed to be going out to celeb later. so i decided to go too :p
before going to celeb, McCutie had yet another friend in dt having ppl over for drinks before going out to celeb. so we went there for a bit as well. and it turned out his friend is someone i know as well lol
no i don't "get around!!" lol
anyways, so we had a few drinks and boy do i turn red! they kept talking about it!! grrr apparently even my palms turned red.. i wonder what else turned bright red.. hehe
drunk enough yet? celeb we went :) needless to say, i ran into more ppl there - hey it's u how r u what have u been doing blah blah kinda thing. but it was good and fun. hopping from this mini-group to that to that to yet another one. i was in the mood for that so it was fun :)
so i guess i've been meeting alot of ppl lately. but it's kinda weird that they all know each other as well. i know it's vancouver so "everyone knows everyone" but it was kinda more than that. all these ppl don't just know of each other, some of them actually hang out every now and then. i totally felt like i was an outsider just joining in or something.
very interesting sat nights 3 weeks in a roll. may be next weekend i'll hang out with my own peeps for change.
t-minus one hr till McDaddy's plane arrives :)
first came the fun part. i had dinner with a cute boy - McCutie it is lol (i'm not creative!) anyways, we went to dinner at a sushi restaurant on 3432 w. broadway called Eatery. it was an amazing restaurant! it' not decorated like a regular japanese restaurant at all -- it looks like a pub with candles and a live dj playing really really good house/dance music. and the food was good too. we arrived just in time to get the second last empty table; 2 seconds after that some ppl came and took the last one and it was line-up-and-look-at-ppl-eat for an hr for the ppl who came after. i'll definitely go back there!
anyways, it was nice having dinner with McCutie. i met him online several weeks back and chatted a little bit on msn. i also ran into him a couple of times clubbing. it was interesting to hang out with him and talk about stuff. he has very cute eyes when he smiles :) but i think we'r better off as friends. he's quite new; i think he has some catching up to do.
after the dinner, he said a friend of his in dt is having a house warming thing. so i said let's go cuz i was in the mood to meet some new ppl and just socialize. once we got there, so much for the mood to get to meet new ppl.. other than the host and one other person in the place, i knew everyone else! what's more strange is that most of them i met through McPiggy.. so, that was creepy. lol
so i just sat around and chatted a little bit. and then the buzzer rang and the host was like, "oh, must be **** and ****" yet another two ppl i know. and then after that, a bit later more ppl came, 4 to be exactly, and this time i only knew one of them lol that was crazy
originally i was planning to go home by 11 or midnight cuz in the morning i have go to the airport and pick up McDaddy (he would hate me if he knew i call him that hehe i think i'll tell him later hehe). i didn't want to have to drive in the morning all tired but everyone seemed to be going out to celeb later. so i decided to go too :p
before going to celeb, McCutie had yet another friend in dt having ppl over for drinks before going out to celeb. so we went there for a bit as well. and it turned out his friend is someone i know as well lol
no i don't "get around!!" lol
anyways, so we had a few drinks and boy do i turn red! they kept talking about it!! grrr apparently even my palms turned red.. i wonder what else turned bright red.. hehe
drunk enough yet? celeb we went :) needless to say, i ran into more ppl there - hey it's u how r u what have u been doing blah blah kinda thing. but it was good and fun. hopping from this mini-group to that to that to yet another one. i was in the mood for that so it was fun :)
so i guess i've been meeting alot of ppl lately. but it's kinda weird that they all know each other as well. i know it's vancouver so "everyone knows everyone" but it was kinda more than that. all these ppl don't just know of each other, some of them actually hang out every now and then. i totally felt like i was an outsider just joining in or something.
very interesting sat nights 3 weeks in a roll. may be next weekend i'll hang out with my own peeps for change.
t-minus one hr till McDaddy's plane arrives :)
Mar 3, 2007
let there be MUSIC !!!
i was profile hopping on downelink and i came across this profile that has an interesting looking music player thing embedded. so i took a look and click on here and there...
OH MY GOD!! it's a site exactly what i've wanted to find for so long!!
imeem @ com let's u upload whatever mp3 (or even pictures or videos) to ur profile up there and do playlists and get listend (or watched) by other users. and the most important thing is that now i can have music on my blog!! cuz it's very hard to find the music that i want already somewhere uploaded and hosted by ppl.
right now, the song is Original of Love from the movie Hedwig the Angry Inch. i did a post about this song early but now i have it playing here~~ yay me~~~ lol
the lyrics is really meaningful and it just strikes into the heart:
http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/hedwigandtheangryinch/originoflove.htm
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in mine.
That's the pain,
Cuts a straight line
Down through the heart;
We called it love.
OH MY GOD!! it's a site exactly what i've wanted to find for so long!!
imeem @ com let's u upload whatever mp3 (or even pictures or videos) to ur profile up there and do playlists and get listend (or watched) by other users. and the most important thing is that now i can have music on my blog!! cuz it's very hard to find the music that i want already somewhere uploaded and hosted by ppl.
right now, the song is Original of Love from the movie Hedwig the Angry Inch. i did a post about this song early but now i have it playing here~~ yay me~~~ lol
the lyrics is really meaningful and it just strikes into the heart:
http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/hedwigandtheangryinch/originoflove.htm
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in mine.
That's the pain,
Cuts a straight line
Down through the heart;
We called it love.
Mar 2, 2007
182!!
i love running.
but not outside on the street or on the beach -- i like it on a treadmill. i like the fact that it's just flat and stable and no matter how explosive i run i'm not crashing into anyone or a street lamp.
but i hate sweating and I HATE SWEATING!! it's very uncomfortable and sticky and gross. i can't stand it. so i usually end up not running in the gym.
BUT i don't wanna end up being one of those guys who look fit (by lifting weights) and in fact has a weak heart and a weaker lung function. so i've decided to take up running in the gym again.
i've ran before in the gym and i used to get that choking and burning sensation in my lungs really quick, but yesterday i was able to run for a whole 8 mins without any weird feeling in my lungs and only stopped because i didn't want to sweat. u might be thinking, "if he wasn't sweating yet, he must've not really been running hard enough." i was running hard enough -- heart rate at 166. i don't sweat easy.
today i decided to push myself more and i ran for more than 10mins on 7.7 spd with a heart rate of --- wait for it ------- wait for it ---- 182!! (i guess is not such a surprise if u noticed the name of this post... shut up! lol) my lungs had a little bit of weird feel, but really nothing compared to the past. so i guess my cardio actually went up, somehow, over the past yr and a half since i've stopped any cardio at gym.
next time, i'll bring a t-shirt to change into so that i wouldn't mind the sweating so much and run more hehe
i wonder if 200 heart rate not healthy to aim for... lol
but not outside on the street or on the beach -- i like it on a treadmill. i like the fact that it's just flat and stable and no matter how explosive i run i'm not crashing into anyone or a street lamp.
but i hate sweating and I HATE SWEATING!! it's very uncomfortable and sticky and gross. i can't stand it. so i usually end up not running in the gym.
BUT i don't wanna end up being one of those guys who look fit (by lifting weights) and in fact has a weak heart and a weaker lung function. so i've decided to take up running in the gym again.
i've ran before in the gym and i used to get that choking and burning sensation in my lungs really quick, but yesterday i was able to run for a whole 8 mins without any weird feeling in my lungs and only stopped because i didn't want to sweat. u might be thinking, "if he wasn't sweating yet, he must've not really been running hard enough." i was running hard enough -- heart rate at 166. i don't sweat easy.
today i decided to push myself more and i ran for more than 10mins on 7.7 spd with a heart rate of --- wait for it ------- wait for it ---- 182!! (i guess is not such a surprise if u noticed the name of this post... shut up! lol) my lungs had a little bit of weird feel, but really nothing compared to the past. so i guess my cardio actually went up, somehow, over the past yr and a half since i've stopped any cardio at gym.
next time, i'll bring a t-shirt to change into so that i wouldn't mind the sweating so much and run more hehe
i wonder if 200 heart rate not healthy to aim for... lol
Mar 1, 2007
i invite u to....
my bed room :)
and this is my bed.. wanna hop in? :p
and there a few items in my room that i took close-ups of - there'r here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105425/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105423/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105420/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105416/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105410/
well i hope u guys enjoyed the tour :)
hmm..
actually there's one more pic i took when i was taking all these pics......
hehehehehe..........
and this is my bed.. wanna hop in? :p
and there a few items in my room that i took close-ups of - there'r here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105425/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105423/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105420/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105416/
http://www.flickr.com/photos/89405302@N00/407105410/
well i hope u guys enjoyed the tour :)
hmm..
actually there's one more pic i took when i was taking all these pics......
hehehehehe..........
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